Why

 

I've always wondered why so many women have someone in their life and I don't. I used to think it was because there was something wrong with me. I'm not so sure anymore. And yet . . .

I dated several different people during high school and several others during college. I was married for most of my young adult life and dated some in the period after my divorce, so I guess there are men who are interested enough to ask me out more than once.

The problem seems to be that as much as I would love to be part of a twosome, with someone to come home to, I have limits. 

I look at the couples in my particular world and I would not trade places with any of them. I simply do not feel that connection I need to commit myself to most people. And the few I do, don't seem to want to commit to me for one reason or another.

It is better to be single than in an unbalanced, unhealthy relationship. Loneliness is better than heartbreak and unhappiness. It's not happiness, but it's not misery either. 

I would love to meet that one person who loves me deeply and passionately that I can love back in the same way, but time is running out and I'm not willing to settle.