Back in the race

 

Today I stepped back into the rat race. 

I spent hours trying to fill out applications on line, a good hour at Fed Ex where a woman tried to download the applications and print them out for me, along with my resume. Then I went home and sat down to laboriously fill out each little blank space.

It turned out I needed professional references and that began another long task of trying to find people from my past who would fill the bill and be willing to help out. I sent out all kinds of feelers and requests and began the wait.

Eventually things began to come together. I cleaned up, put on my most beatific smile and decided to deliver the applications myself. That way they might remember me better and have an idea of who I was. I am a fairly strong personality and I wanted them to know I wasn't some frail little old lady who used to be a preschool teacher.

I am a hale and hearty, loving and competent woman who has worked with all kinds of children and generally relates to them quite well.

I did the best I knew how from beginning to end and now I have to just let it go and wait. I am exhausted!