Just because

I seldom allow myself the freedom to be just me in all my grandiose, silly, overly passionate ways. I'd be too embarrassed and worried about what people would think or say, but tonight I am free.

Tonight I let myself put on the earphones and pound my keyboard as if I were Lizt himself. My Hungarian Rhapsody rhapsodized me! Claire de Lune would have made Debussy swoon! It was a grand recital in the world's most private concert hall. My bedroom where the acoustics matched Schroeder's in every way.

Since I was the only one in attendance the critics were ecstatic. 

I allowed myself one more indulgence that I never ever allow, for a million reasons. I allowed the love of my life to be there in all his glory. Listening with the ears of someone drenched in kindness and a smile that lights up everything around him wherever he may be. Someone whose actual presence will never grace these rooms, but fills my heart daily.

Tonight my dreams surrounded me and I allowed myself to be drenched in joy. Just me. Just for a while. Just because.