Island living

I feel very isolated right now. 

I talk on the phone to Bestest and my son every day. I keep in touch with my Muse --- just barely. 

I am on the cusp of starting a new job that hasn't quite materialized yet. It is too hot to walk outside right now and so everything is different.

I am used to being alone. I am basically a loner type person, but it is different from this. Being alone and feeling lonely are two different things. Right now I am feeling truly stranded and alone in a situation that is unfamiliar to me.

It is as if I am on an island where I can see the food truck on the distant shore and a boutique on another, but I am stranded, eating local vegetation and wearing my at home uniform while waiting for the ferry.

I know I will have to pay my way by working on that ferry. I know I can do it. I've shoveled coal into the furnace before, but not for a very long time, so I'm wondering if I will find the shovel very heavy, or have trouble balancing it and not dropping pieces of coal on the floor. 

Everything is going to be different and I don't know anyone else who lives alone on an island who I can talk to about this.