Disillusioned

I walked thirty five minutes tonight. It is the first time in ten days.

Up till then I had been walking 40 to 100 minutes a day since January.

I hoped this would lead to a healthier life.

I have seen no evidence of this, so when the heat is obnoxious and my body betrays me in significant ways, it is hard to stay excited about walking.

My blood pressure has not dropped. My weight has gone up. My body is doing strange and scary things. It feels unfair.

Then I think, nature is not fair. It just is.

Late freezes kill lovely flowering trees. Horrible storms wreak havoc that causes death and destruction across the world. Human beings destroy beautiful things every day. Bigger animals kill smaller ones.

That is life.

About the best I can do is just go forth and live, the best I can.