Creator of all creation

 I believe in that most indiscernible power that created creation. I don't doubt that this power can do anything.

Now, having said this, there are times when that faith fails me, but that has nothing to do with this almighty power, or at least I don't believe it does. Because I believe that in trying to define this power so many call God, or some equivalent name, I can never do more than describe a fraction of it.

Mortal human beings, even the most brilliant and far reaching minds, can only conceive of so much and to believe that that even comes close to rivaling the power of the original creator is egotistical at the best.

Trying to turn this power into something understandable, and therefore possibly something we can manipulate, seems child like and well, manipulative to me. I don't believe anyone can teach another person real faith and if they do, then they can also take that faith away. I want something stronger than a mortal mind to rely on.

And I don't even know what I mean by rely on. I like the order in our world. Not the world of man which can hate and destroy and make miserable those who don't conform to its ideas of right and wrong, but the world that grows oak trees from acorns with or without man's help.

I listen with all the ability I have to be still. I try to listen only to be filled with truth and without goals to attain anything. I listen and I have faith that in the end this indiscernible power will take me and use me in the same way it uses an acorn. Use me in ways that might stagger my imagination, for love and creation and all that is good and kind in this world.

No one can do my listening for me and I can't do it for anyone else and in the end I have a feeling that the one who benefits most from my listening -- is me.

That's a pretty personal god. I believe I was created to be good, wonderful, loved. My job is not to close the doors on that.

Now you have to believe what is in your heart, in what you hear, because I don't believe it works any other way.