Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Close To My Heart

Change can be painful.

In fact, it can be so painful that I am willing to live with all sorts of things rather than change them.

It can be so painful that I prefer trying to justify hurtful, or bad behaviors rather than change them.

And if I do decide to change things, the pain sometimes makes the changes hard to figure out. The closer to my heart the old ways are, the less likely they are to be changed.

It is like those long rows of dominoes my son used to set up on the pool table. One little change alters everything down the line and suddenly I am in a world of hurt. The pain can be so bad that I don't even notice that there are no more little blocks standing up between me and my goal, so I'm still in danger of reverting back to the old ways.

It takes courage, determination and sometimes just plain grit to make important changes in my life, but it is possible.

Change is an important part of growth and one of the best ways for me to weather the pain is to picture what will happen when I succeed.

What they say about life being a journey is true. We all are born and we all will die, but the ride is sure a lot better for some of us than others. If I never get on the right train, it will be one long miserable trip.

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