Feelings

I am sometimes amazed at the little things that tug at my heart. In spite of all the years I have lived, I still feel some of the same things I have always felt and try as I might I doubt this will ever stop completely.

These things never will go away, but I have learned to deal with them by looking at them differently than I might have as a very young person. I have good days, bad days, happy days and sad days. What seems unimportant one day, may bring me to tears on another. Things I brush off without a second thought on one day, seem very important on another. Some days I am totally independent and think I need no one. Other days I want a shoulder to cry on, or arms to fall into. Sometimes I need to share my joy. Other times I am content to just enjoy it. Sometimes I even feel jealousy, which is silly, because who knows what other things another human being must deal with.

I am simply a human being. No more, no less, and that can be pretty humbling knowledge. Sometimes I want to be perfect and that is one more thing that will never go completely away.

Life may not be a trade off, it may not be fair, but it is what it is and nothing can change that. The only thing I can change is how I choose to deal with it and that is where experience comes into play. I know I can deal with almost anything, even negative feelings, in the moment.