In the now

My whole life has been a quest. Some of my earliest memories are of light and fire, familiar shadows and vivid dreams. My world has always been filled with mystery and anticipation.

I just know there is more to this living than getting up, going to work, coming home and going to bed. I always needed a job that fed my soul as well as paid the rent. I needed the adventures other people went out of their way to avoid.  I am always looking for the myth.

I am certainly no Indiana Jones, but I have gone out of my way to do things other people in my circle of family and friends do not do. Most of it since my fiftieth birthday when I was a free woman still young and healthy enough to get out there and try things.

I met Peter Pan at dawn and we danced hand in hand in the rising sun by a lake one morning. I sat in the lap of a giant redwood so huge that I looked like a child. I've plumbed the depths of canyons in Bryce National Park and suffered from altitude sickness so severe I thought I might die right there. A mountain lion observed me standing stock still afraid to move in King's Canyon because I wandered off away from my hiking companion. I've smelled bears and journeyed with shamanic drumming into the depths of my being. I've done a vision quest and slept in a circle in a church trying to replicate the ancient Greek healing practice of sleeping in a temple and meeting Ascelepius himself.

 It all took courage because I am so afraid of loose dogs I cannot walk around the block unless I know they won't be around, but it is the call of something unique that gets me out there trying new things, meeting new people and I hope I never lose that. 

I've made mistakes. I've fallen into the depths of depression. I've felt heartbreak that I thought might kill me, but I've also had experiences I would not trade for the world. Following my dreams is part of who I am. 

Meeting my Muse has been my newest and one of my most beautiful experiences. It is one I am right in the middle of right now and that is a good place to be. In the now.