Someone Else Said It

I have been trying to write a thot for the past three hours, during which time I also did laundry, ate supper and deleted umpteen false starts.

This past month has been a period of redefining my life and re-thinking who I am. I realize that I am the same person I have always been in most respects, just not quite as mellowed out as I thought I was. I still feel I have no choice when it comes to doing, or not doing, some things. I am who I am and that has not changed.

It makes my life hard, forcing me to do things that are out of my comfort level, but that is really nothing new. It's just not something I have had to do for a long time. I suppose that is really an affirmation. It means my work in this world is not as close to being over as I thought it was.

A friend wrote, "You're right, that things are really going just fine and you're finding a new place to live in your life." I know that, but it certainly was comforting to hear someone else say it. It has become my mantra in times of panic, or indecision. "Things are really going just fine."

And they are. I just need to remember that all things happen in their own time and that may not be exactly how I dreamed it.

Tomorrow I go to my first orientation for volunteering. It's at the Prairie Aviation Museum, now what do you think of that!