Find Where The Fulcrum Should Be

I remember so many New Year's Eves when I sat around writing poetry about the difficulties in my life. Very real, very emotionally debilitating, but not this year. I have learned so many things this year and almost all of them are about me, which I guess makes sense, since the only reality I know comes through the filters of this being I am.

Almost all the new lessons are really old ones. In retrospect I can see how the universe offered them to me before, but back then they were so camouflaged by my own baggage I never recognized them. I have unpacked a lot of things, given back what is not mine and tried to just pitch those things that are not really useful, or good for me.

The newest phase of my life is so balanced and sane that I am in a little bit of shock. I do everything out of love and it seems everyone around me does the same. It took us a while to find where the fulcrum should be, but now that we know where it is, we all have plenty of room for ups and downs without knocking each other off balance.

Instead of writing sad poetry this year, I spent the afternoon with Lennon. We were playing with one of those games that have checkers, chess, cribbage and all sorts of other games tucked away inside. It was like a treasure chest for Lennon as he discovered first one thing then another. Stacking the dice into leaning towers, counting the dots on the dominoes, rolling the checkers around -- until he saw the chess pieces. In less than ten minutes he had learned to set up his own chess board! The idea of castles and kings and queens defended by their knights (in shining armor) delighted him! It will be a long time before he is ready to play and then his Daddy will have to take over anything beyond the basic moves, but at 37 months he sure has delighted Gramma.

To make a bad pun, I am living in de light and to speak the truth, it is an awesome way to live. May you find such light in your life too