Not Well

Journaling, for someone who loves to write, sounds simple. but doing it honestly is harder than I anticipated. First of all I am really not feeling well today. I am coughing so hard at times that I hear something pop inside me. It is a familiar sound, but I can't for the life of me remember why. My head and neck feel so hot that I keep holding whatever cold I am drinking up to touch them. My lower back aches enough that I cannot ignore it. It helps to bend forward for a while, but I am suffering from some sort of gastrointestinal problem. Nothing horrendous. I just feel bad enough that everything is hard, so I keep pushing to do those things that I deem necessary.

On the other side, the outside, I am finding myself easily moved, weepy. I am so easily moved that the simplest things become so heart touching that I wonder at myself. A local news station does a series on pay it forward every Thursday. I saw it tonight and remembered when a dear friend gave me money and told me to just pay it forward when I could. I don't know if it counts if it is to family, but I did pay it forward and I always try to give a little something when I can.