Yesterday

Yesterday was a seven doughnut, rearrange the entire apartment day.

It began with me talking to Bestest and working on the computer, but then I had too much time before picking up my daughter for the library and lunch and I texted people.

I was just feeling so good and loving and I wanted to share that with those I loved, but I never heard back from one and that has me concerned and  another was having a very bad day.

By five o'clock in the afternoon I went shopping for my drugs of choice, sugar and carbs, bought seven doughnuts, one sub sandwich and some Diet Coke.

Then I came home, ate the doughnuts and switched out the bedroom and living room! In a way that made sense. I freeze all day sitting near the air conditioner in my living room and sweat all night because I need to be covered up to sleep in the other room. It was good exercise moving all that heavy furniture and finagling it around corners,

I should have slept well, but I had nightmares all night long. One of the worst was that someone I love very much burned me and I had to put my hand in the stream to stop the pain. Then it was just chaos, finding and losing my children, buying them school clothes that were adorable, but way too expensive and being threatened by huge German Shepard dogs at every turn.

Yep, yesterday was a seven doughnut, rearrange the entire apartment type day.