Sometimes I look down at my feet and they are the same feet I've had all my life and then I look in the mirror and I feel like I'm playing dress up.
Not like I'm wearing my mother's clothes, or walking around in someone else's high heeled shoes, or wearing Grandma's hat, because I'm not. I'm dressed just like I always dress only it doesn't look like I'm supposed to look.
I've got on somebody elses face and hands! She looks familiar, but that can't be me!
I must be having a dream that I grew up and got old. I even dreamed that I had children and grandchildren, there hasn't been enough time for that. Has there?
Outside, the sky still looks just as blue and the clouds are big and fluffy like they've always been. The trees still smell so good when they're all wet from the rain and when the moon comes out? I still see the old man smiling at me and sometimes I see that lady up there brushing her hair. The first star pops into the night sky and I make a wish.
"I wish I may, I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight." And I make the same wish I've made all my life.
I think it has come true a bunch of times, but I always thought it was supposed to stick. I always thought that one day everything would come true and I would live happily ever after...for ever. Then things would not change anymore. That was how I'd know I was finished, how I'd know I was all grown up. Then I would be the one who knew how to do everything and didn't have to ask questions any more.
But I just seemed to get bigger...and maybe older....almost everything else seems the same.
Not like I'm wearing my mother's clothes, or walking around in someone else's high heeled shoes, or wearing Grandma's hat, because I'm not. I'm dressed just like I always dress only it doesn't look like I'm supposed to look.
I've got on somebody elses face and hands! She looks familiar, but that can't be me!
I must be having a dream that I grew up and got old. I even dreamed that I had children and grandchildren, there hasn't been enough time for that. Has there?
Outside, the sky still looks just as blue and the clouds are big and fluffy like they've always been. The trees still smell so good when they're all wet from the rain and when the moon comes out? I still see the old man smiling at me and sometimes I see that lady up there brushing her hair. The first star pops into the night sky and I make a wish.
"I wish I may, I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight." And I make the same wish I've made all my life.
I think it has come true a bunch of times, but I always thought it was supposed to stick. I always thought that one day everything would come true and I would live happily ever after...for ever. Then things would not change anymore. That was how I'd know I was finished, how I'd know I was all grown up. Then I would be the one who knew how to do everything and didn't have to ask questions any more.
But I just seemed to get bigger...and maybe older....almost everything else seems the same.
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