There is no rest for sleep walkers

Change is part of living so if I am not adaptable life is going to be hard.

Life IS hard for those of us who grew up believing  we were supposed to grow up, find a profession, find a partner, find a home, fill in all the blanks and live happily ever after.

Anything short of being all things to all people feels like failure and some of us deal with that failure by trying harder while others deal with it by leaving and some just go to sleep and live the rest of our lives in a somnambulistic state.

It all involves change, but different kinds of change.  The way we define and choose them depends on how honest we can be with ourselves..

Trying harder can be the road to satisfaction unless it becomes a constant battle to one up ourselves and everyone else.

Leaving can be very fulfilling if we leave for something that feels healthier, better, maybe even happier.

Sleep walking turns us into zombies, the walking dead, who deal with change like a man in quicksand, struggling to stay afloat in frustrating, murky confusion. There is no rest for sleep walkers.

When what I once did was wonderful, but now it is not, what do I do?

I change.

Please let me do it with insight and courage.