Moments

I was trying to think of things that were better than just good moments in my life and instead I found myself thinking of sad things, things that felt like they had gone wrong. I wondered if I were the common denominator in all these things and even with Bestest's best common sense talk I was not in a good place.

Tonight, I was sitting here when I remembered one of the best and most amazing moments of my entire life. I was standing in front of our patio doors in our first house. It was mid morning. The sun was shining. It was such a beautiful day. As I gazed out at the bluest sky, it was as if I were dreaming. I was inside my womb, moving and looking out through diffused light and in that moment I knew my child was conceived.

Mere minutes later I felt foolish. I had no reason to ever believe that I would have a baby at that point. We were approved for adoption, but expected it to be years before our turn came up, so I put it out of my mind.

Then, four and a half months later, we received a call. Our baby was born! We brought him home and that baby had "eyes as blue as the sky and hair as gold as the sun." 

And that was the song I sang to him while he was growing up.