Silence

Life is so transient.

The only chance I have at happiness is in this moment.  Any other moment is completely out of my hands.  Of course, most of this one seems to be too.

Trying to savor the moment means letting go of so much other stuff that even the possibility seems unlikely, but perhaps this is the first lesson.

Let go for an instant and see what happens.  Maybe then I can build trust in myself, in my ability to do more.

It feels precarious.

Sometimes it even feels wrong.

But I think I can risk one second at a time.  After all, I can always go back.

Yet, that is even less appealing than this.

I watch other creatures, trying to see what they do.  The two ducks who come to my deck laid an egg this morning.  Two crows came along and ate it a short time later.  The ducks just sat in their usual place, heads tucked under their wings.  Silent. 

Who knows what this means -- if anything.