I want what I want

Stressful situations often make me feel powerless.

Powerless because I cannot change them, or at least change them right away and waiting is the worst thing in the world when things are not right.

Every little twinge looms menacingly dark and overwhelming when I am waiting.

I try living only in the moment, but sometimes the moment encompasses my insecurity about the future.

I've tried believing that what I want, or something better will eventually come out of all this, but that is hard to imagine, because what I want is all I want -- right now. 

That is when I need to remember that I haven't always imagined all the possibilities in the past and there is no reason to believe I am now.

It takes a little faith to wait and see, but even a little drop of faith can go a long way.