To dream or not to dream

I have been thinking about my dreams a lot lately.  They have not been pleasant.  The idea of sweet dreams has been missing in  my most recent nights.  I almost dread going to sleep.

So I watch television, read, stay up too late and then when I lay down I try NOT to think about what I don't want to dream about -- which really doesn't work.

If I could direct my dreaming it might be different.  Thinking about what I do, or do not, want to dream about doesn't really make any difference.  My dreams have a mind of their own.  They just go on their merry way delving into painful themes.

And they are not particularly specific.  Sometimes I experience the bad feelings from one thing with someone who had nothing to do with them, so figuring them out isn't easy.

Why would I want to figure them out?

Because there are themes that come up again and again and the feelings associated with them are strong enough to keep me from not wanting to sleep.

Some dreams are just dreams, but I honestly believe that some are my own little pyscho-dramas trying to clear things up.