“Well, it’s gonna happen, so just going to live with it.” Honest words, spoken quietly and calmly. It is a wise person who can live by this philosophy.
Everyone is different. We don’t all have the same favorite colors and we don’t all feel things the same way, but that does not negate the wisdom of facing the truth squarely and avoiding as much drama as possible. It’s a much healthier way of coping that mine.
I do try. I try very hard to deal with life in the moment, but my natural tendency is to try and protect myself up front. I have to watch myself, because I will keep everyone at an arm’s distance in order to avoid the pain of letting go later on. I purposely try not to allow myself to do that.
I try to just give my natural desire to be loving and close, free reign, knowing that eventually there will be separation and pain, but that the richness and the joy that comes first, is worth it.
It is. It also falls under, “Well, it’s gonna happen, so (I’m) just going to live with it.”
So I do a lot of sharing, a lot of loving and eventually it is inevitable that there will be holes when these people move on, but “Well, it’s gonna happen, so just going to live with it.”
It is who I am. Sometimes I fill the holes with tears and find myself treading water before I get over it enough to find those proverbial windows that are supposed to open up. The thing is, I know they are there, but I forget how much pain often precedes them.
That is probably a good thing.
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