Sheer joy

 

It is interesting that I never considered studying design in my life, because I have been drawing house plans since before I was ten years old.

My favorite thing to do is rearrange my home and plan new designs.

I never tire of looking at houses, their rooms, their furniture, their colors and wall paper and even gardens, although gardens are never at the top of my list.

Every time I make a change in my home, I feel a sense of accomplishment and excitement. I will sometimes sit and contemplate, or admire it for hours.

I laughingly say I rearrange my house when I can't rearrange my life, but I don't need a reason to rearrange things. I love the simple act of even thinking about it. 

The first time I remember thinking about it, I was three years old and I saw a picture of a low bookcase surrounding a small round table with two chairs. I wanted my mother to help me create that scene, but she brushed it off saying I'd change my mind.

She was right of course, but not for the reasons she thought. I would change my mind for the sheer joy of doing it and seeing it done differently.

I still feel the same way. 

It is hard to explain the joy I get from changing things around.