I have lots of reasons to smile and yet, some days, it is still difficult. Why is that?
I think it is because I am also a realist. My life is far from perfect and I know that. I also know nothing is perfect, but some days are less perfect than others.
I think it is because I know that everything can be ripped out from under me with no notice at all. As a child I could wake up and find my parents were moving me to a new school, a new neighborhood, a new place where I knew no one. As a wife I never knew when I woke up if my husband was secretly moving out. He did that three separate times. As a mother I lost my apartment without any notice when the person upstairs got upset.
Things change. That's life. But sometimes I just need something solid to hold on to. Sometimes that is only knowing my smile makes someone happy.
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