Fascination

It today's world almost everything can be repeated.  Movies come on DVDs.  Television shows are horrendously over played.  I can write and rewrite to my heart's content.  Songs can be recorded, dubbed over and re-recorded.  Books can, and, for me often must, be read more than once.

In short there is room and time to practice and study and perfect almost everything!

Except real life!

The really important things in life usually only happen once.  It's a do or die situation that is never totally the same twice.  By the time it happens I may have a quick moment to dip into my reserves of experiences, but no time to sort out which ones really worked and which ones only muddied things up.

Or at least that is the way it has always felt.

Now I am discovering I can take my time -- even if it makes someone else impatient!  Even if it makes someone else really mad!  And honestly?  Most of the time nobody cares at all.  The pressure to respond immediately and as if I really know mostly came from me!

Time goes faster as I get older and I find myself going slower.  Giving myself time to savor the richness of even my spur of the moment decisions is one of the perks of being retired.  Almost everything I do is something I want to do on some level.

That makes complaining or being unhappy rather pointless and that is a fascinating to think about.  It gives things a completely different perspective.