Sometimes over striving is the most pointless thing in the world.
I can study for a test. I can practice for a recital. I can memorize techniques for almost anything.
Except being me!
The more I try to design and perfect a real me, the farther I move from the actual thing.
I am amazed to discover that when I just give up and allow my real self to emerge I turn into that thing I value most in other people.
When I think about it, it is pretty egoistical to think I wouldn’t be just like most people, but it never seemed that way to me before.
Before it always seemed like most other people have all “those” qualities, but that somehow I never developed them. Kind of like waiting to grow up, but this is grown up for me.
Leave it to a child to lead me to myself, because I realized that my desire to honor him by being me set me free.
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