Better Late Than Never

I admire courage, but there is a difference between facing ones fears and being afraid to be vulnerable. One is truly strength and the other is just a facade.

Sometimes I am truly courageous, but more often than not, I am just afraid of showing my vulnerability. Often, to my own credit, I don't know the difference at the time.

I want my children to be strong, but not so strong they don't even know when they are sick, or hurting. By the time my sister and I realize we are really sick, it is often way past the time to do something about it. It was what we learned growing up and old habits die hard.

Suffering in silence and martyrdom were the role models impressed upon us. I never realized the frustration and anger I felt from living with these things until I grew up and moved away from them.

Honesty and forth rightness are so much better. I am just now learning to say that I don't feel good, or need something without feeling guilty. I used to be ashamed to admit I even went to the doctor for anything other than check ups. The other day I not only admitted it to someone, I admitted it hurt!

Kind of sad it took so long to figure this stuff out, but better late than never!