Addendum

I feel myself changing, truly changing in very definite and deep ways. Symbolically, my unconsciousness speaks to me in dreams where I meet a tall, dark mysterious stranger, not one who would usually call to me, this one walks beside me, becomes a part of my life and it is different. It is still a little uncomfortable, the old angst is still present, but it is different.

My blogs, which were once two separate entities have somehow merged into one, a symbol I think of my own pieces mending themselves, becoming whole once more, or perhaps even for the very first time.

I feel more secure than I can ever remember feeling in my entire life. I think I am happy? Not a hilariously madly bacchanalian state, but a tree growing in the forest filled with light and shade sort of way. A deeply rooted, part of the state of things way.

How fascinating.