Changing the system

Today I start training for a new job! 

My mother died at 58, fourteen years before she reached my age. My father was in a nursing home for several years before dying just short of his 73 birthday, which will be my next one. When my daughter was home she said, "You could get a job Mom." Her belief in me doing this opened a door.

My Muse has helped me once more. He suggested reading Atomic Habits by James Clear. It is the perfect book for me right now as I try to reinvent and become my best self.

I am trying to think of myself as the person I want to be, need to be, if this new phase of my life is going to be as good as it can be. So I am trying to change the system. One tiny habit at a time.

I've been going to bed early and getting up early for the last three weeks.  I am a morning person now. I have also been walking every day, so I think I can safely say I am relatively athletic for my age. My muse urged me to go back to playing on my keyboard -- I'm a musician!  I am also an artist!  You get the idea. 

It really is the journey that counts and it is the way I see myself on this journey.  Beginning today I am also a member of the working class,  a full fledged person contributing to my own and other people's well being. 

That may all sound a little grand to you, but it astounds me. A few months ago I was ready to pack it in, end my life. I had totally given up. Now I am not just alive, I am excited.