Decisions

Is there a process for making decisions?

I am not sure there is for me, but maybe I do it all subconsciously.

This morning I woke up and suddenly began thinking about something that has been going on a very long time. I've made excuses for it. I've tried to work through it rationally, emotionally, practically. I discussed it with Bestest and my youngest son.

And I have come up with so many different solutions. None of which worked.

Last month I realized I had been used in a way that only seemed possible in a very bad soap opera.

But only today did I come to the conclusion that I want nothing more to do with it.

I am through.

Not just emotionally, but kaput, finished, done, I have almost no real feelings about it at all right now. There was a little anger this morning, but now it feels far behind me.

That is good, because I really never had any control or say so in this situation and prolonging it had no positive outcomes.

Now all that can be said is:

It is over.