Dangerous help

Lately I get up in the morning, check my blood sugar, take my blood pressure, weigh myself, as if I am some sort of invalid.

I feel fragile.

Yet nothing has changed except that I am going to the doctor and he has ordered heart tests, blood tests, raised concern over all of my body's functions.

Up till then I felt good. I felt strong. I was walking, working, doing everything without a thought.

I know that keeping all these things in check is ultimately important, but I also know that I am mostly a mind and bundle of emotions encased in a body, so how I feel is equally important.

I don't know how much my high blood pressure is my heart and arteries and how much is psychological. I can feel my heart begin to pound the minute I take out my blood pressure cuff now.

How do I survive old age without being swallowed alive by well meaning doctors?