Sunday, February 12, 2012

A sqaure peg in a round world


I have a tendency to think my way is the best.  I suppose that is human nature and a good thing for the most part.  After all, why would I do something if I didn’t think it was the best way?

Of course I do do things that are not the best all the time.  I eat the wrong foods and too much of them.  I don’t exercise enough.  I have a tendency to stay up too late and then I get up later in the morning.  But it is the eight hours of sleep that matter in my opinion.  When they happen shouldn’t really make a difference.

I also tend to be better in the short haul.  I am meticulous, almost a perfectionist about some things, for a while.  Then my attention wanders, my interest lags, and I tire of it.  .

People need continuity, but I also need change.  My sister is good for the long haul.  She’s raising my dog and still a nurse after over forty years.  We need people like her, but I can’t be that.  Everything about me comes in short bursts of energy.  It always has, even my sport of choice, tennis. 

Teaching preschool meant organizing my day into twenty-minute segments.  Perfect for me.  Paying bills comes once a month for a short period of time.  Writing this thot once a day takes around 30-60 minutes.  Housework is dragged out over the course of a week.  Laundry was such a chore I wanted to move rather than spend all that time in a Laundromat.  Now I rush in, wash my clothes and take them home to dry.  Yes, I’d rather hang things around my room than stay there and watch that dryer spin. 

I like to lose myself in the passion of something and then move on to another passion.  Sometimes I wish I was different, but I think I am finally coming to terms with me.  I used to pretend I wasn’t this way, but I still really was.  Now that I am “retired” I seem to be able to give myself permission to like me the way I am.

The world needs all kinds of people, even me.

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