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Nothing stays the same forever.

If there is one lesson in life I have finally learned: it is that things change. And in general the idea that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction does seem to apply.

There are so many ways of dealing with something like this. I can feign ignorance and pretend I didn’t know it would change, I can try to plan for the change and manipulate things to come out the way I want, or I can learn to roll with the punches and just accept that if I want to do the deed I must pay the price.

This last one is what seems to apply in my life. For me it seems that for the second, more moderate way to work, things must be a little more middle of the road.

It is hard for me to stand in the middle of the road and look out at the glorious beauty just beyond my reach. I ache for the extremes. I seem to have a need to immerse myself in something so far that I burn.

Knowing that to step over there means I will suffer the pain of separation when the time comes does not seem to deter me. I know that now.

Part of standing on top of the wave means eventually sliding into the trough and troughs can be dark, desperate, lonely feeling places. Learning to turn trough-time into a time for introspection and a personal moment when I can test my faith in my own beliefs makes it not only endurable, but also a time of growth.

There will always be another moment in the sun as long as I hang in here. Burning and Aching are two sides of the same experience. Accepting them as natural brackets makes this journey a slightly smoother one.