Life

I stand here right in the middle of the festivities. The sun is shining, The weather is perfect. I feel great and right there before me -- everything is happening.

I hear the music playing as the carousel goes round and round. It is a magnificent merry-go-round with carved animals and big mirrors. I see swans and unicorns, rabbits, horses and black panthers.

People I love are riding on it and I can see their smiling faces. They wave at me and even shout out when they come around each time. It is great to be so close.

But I feel a pang tugging at my mind and heart.

I wish I was on that carousel. Riding round and round, up and down, feeling the vibrations of the music in my hands as I hold onto the animal I chose. I want to ride next to those people I love. Touch them, Actually be with them in body as well as spirit.

When it stops I don't get on though. I almost do, but then I realize no one I know is on it now. They have moved on to some other place, but I am trapped at the merry-go-round waiting to see them the next time they are on it.