me me me meeeeeee

The past couple of weeks when the weather forced all of us in the heartland to stay in or become instant icicles was my big chance.  I could do whatever I wanted whenever.

I got NOTHING done.

Turns out when I have to do nothing I eventually adjust and act accordingly.   Even worse, I don't do those things that do need to be done -- just not right now.  I found myself sleeping in my chair for long periods of time.  Not because I was tired.  Just because I didn't have anything else pressing.

Depressing followed.  I didn't sleep well because I slept too much.  I didn't feel awake because I was too sedentary and unfocused.
 
Being retired could be a death sentence!  Or something that could put any normal person on the funny farm.

I need something to rescue me from my dreams and ennui but nothing that impinges on my sense of freedom.  For me that means lots of little things that take a few hours, but never all day.  When people tell me how wonderful I am to volunteer for things I hesitate to tell them I do it for me!

But I  kinda do.