Alone

I think one of the blessings of this world is that I almost never feel alone.

In most moments I am engaged in thoughts that tie me to other people’s thoughts and even my own in either the past, or the future.

Trying to explain that is difficult.  The best way I know how to do it is to say, imagine this world as one large aquarium.  Whenever anyone moves there is a ripple effect that slowly makes its way through the entire area.

Long after I have forgotten I moved, someone else is feeling the effects.

Likewise, as I contemplate some future action, even if it is only a thought, I generate something that stirs things around.

I am pretty independent, a true loner by some people’s standards.  I need a lot of time to process life and that is best done without the company of too many people, but no one is truly alone.  We are all dependent upon the actions of all the other people.

Loneliness is a state of mind more than anything.  The truth is I have never been more alone than I sometimes feel in a crowd of people, nor more connected than I have sometimes felt sitting here writing to someone on my computer.