Really Good Friends

I realized something rather shocking today.

It came about because someone I know is ready to jump back in and actively search for a new partner.  They don’t want to be alone anymore.

I don’t think anyone really wants to be alone.  But honestly I almost never feel alone.  Sure, there are moments when I feel lonely, but I think everyone has those, even people in relationships.  Sometimes, especially people in some relationships.

I realize I wouldn’t mind being with someone again, but for the first time in my life there are significant parts of me that I am not willing to give up in order to do that. 

I am at that place where being lonely for an hour or two is barely worth mentioning due to the richness in the rest of my life most of the rest of the time.  I cannot remember a time when I had so many things going for me that made me happy.

For me to mingle my life with someone else’s on a permanent basis would mean that the other person was in a similar place and we both just wanted to share some of this fullness with one another without either one of us morphing into the other one.

And I would have to feel free to be exactly who I am with this other person, no apologies, no trying to measure up, no trying to impress.  I have to be enough just as I am right now and all that I am right now.  They need to have the same freedom.

I’m no longer willing to just settle for a life partner.  When that feeling is there, something is missing and then it’s better to just be really good friends.