Awakening

Figuring out what the problem is -- sounds like a common sense thing to do, yet I find myself blaming it on age, poverty, or situations when it is something else altogether.

Days, even weeks disappear while I sleep, or barely exist in a fog of deathly exhaustion and then one day I take a tiny pill and find myself full of energy.

A simple over the counter pain reliever, but not the one I had been using. Who would think it could make so much difference? Chronic pain must be much more debilitating than I have allowed myself to believe.

I have been following doctor's orders, taking medicine for blood pressure and not using anything except tylenol. I was almost convinced that I was terribly depressed, or doomed to live this way for the rest of my life. Thank God I finally swallowed an Alleve.