Every diet program starts out talking about making lifestyle changes and I read that like people read everything they are forced to read for their own good.
Quickly and with a grain of salt.
For some reason I always believe I am different.
It was the same way when I went to counseling. They say it is only possible to change yourself, yet I honestly went for validation that he was wrong. I wanted him fixed!
And then one day, at the end of my divorce I found myself in counseling with a very wise woman who asked me why I was there and in the ensuing twenty weeks I began a healing process that has continued for nearly twenty five years now.
I have finally realized that dieting is the same process. I started watching what I ate seventeen months ago when I came out of the Covid quarantine as a grossly overweight, type two diabetic woman. I've lost weight before, but always gained it back as soon as I reached my goal. I had a million reasons and excuses. Many of them valid!
I realize this is a lifestyle change that must not stop. At my age there are not going to be a lot more chances to stay healthy. I have lost almost a hundred pounds. I am walking more every day and I am feeling years younger.
I am treating my food addiction with a sort of modified AA mentality. My mantra is not, make me skinny. It is, I want to be healthy. Learning how to live in a world where food is everywhere and a daily challenge has a learning curve.
The fact that I realize all of this, at last, is a gift.
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