Silent night

Sometimes I think I'd be better off not going to the doctor at all.

I spend more hours than I care to think about -- thinking about going to the doctor.

My shelf life is getting shorter every year. Mightn't it be better to just really enjoy the time left and stop worrying about what could be?

Of course comfort comes in there too, but how do I weigh worrying about what MIGHT be with dealing with what is.

I have high blood pressure.

If I lost enough weight I would not have that, then maybe I'd stop going to the doctor altogether and get on with living instead of contemplating dying.

Just thinking.