One big step for...

There is a learning curve to everything.  I understand that.  I allow for that in other people.

So why don’t I give myself the same leeway?

Especially where money is concerned, if I have to pay for it, I am so much less likely to try it out.

I have wanted to try out texting and email on my cell phone for years, but this year was the first time I allowed myself to venture into that area.

I started out very conservatively and even then went back and pared it down.  I found myself most reluctant to admit to anyone that I was even trying it as if this were some grave and terrible step into a place I didn’t belong.

Slowly, but surely, I discovered the joys of texting and keeping in touch with loved ones without the baggage of waiting on the computer, or the intrusion of a ringing phone that had to be answered.  I doubled my texting limit, then eventually went to unlimited texting, terrified that I had made a mistake and my phone bill would be off the charts.

It wasn’t.

So then I added a data package.  Just a simple one so I can download pictures off my phone and check on email if I my computer is down and once more I went into paroxysms of fear.  Had I overstepped my technical capabilities?  Had I over reached my financial one?

So far, so good, I seem to have taken another step into the world of today and no heavy-handed justice has reached out of nowhere to squash me flat or click his or her tongue in disapproval.  So what’s the big deal?  Why I put myself through so much worry for things other people just take for granted I may never know.