Get Real

I am content with my life right now. There are things I would change if I could, but I don’t need to change them. I have come to terms with who I am, where and how I live and how I will probably die. Now, having said this, I will add that I don’t spend too much time sitting around dwelling on any of these particular things.

Where I am in this moment is so different than I ever thought it would be. Up until a few years ago, I saw myself as a well educated, wealthy woman, living the American Dream in most ways. Now I could be one paycheck away from homelessness. I have no insurance, a ten year old car, and live in a house with no air conditioning, no furnace and a forty year old piano! Sounds bleak doesn’t it?

It’s not. I also have a violin, two flutes, a dog, and a computer! Seriously, I have discovered that peace of mind is much more important than all the rest. Much of my life now co-exists with my son’s family. I rent my house from them, which benefits all of us. I live in the mountains of a state that has cool nights all summer long, low humidity and winters that are doable with a sort of space heater. Perks include seeing my grandson nearly everyday and knowing we are all here for each other if the need arises.

I am more tied down than I have been in many years and that was hard for me in the beginning, but it makes sense at this point in my life so I am getting used to it. I am a very social loner! The adventures I once sought have changed and the adventures I have now come to me whether I want them or not.

Life moves on. My trials and tribulations are very grass-roots right now. My computer makes things possible for me that former generations did not have access to. I find that now I have less, I have more of a need to give and this giving satisfies me in ways having money never did.

I always liked the story of the Velveteen Rabbit, but I didn’t really get it until recently. I’m pretty real now.